These are the names I am giving my drugs.
Lori = Lortab
Vickie = Vicodin
Val = Valium
I had my post-op visits this past week. I have been taking the first 2 when I feel pain (shivering is the WORST).
I meet with Dr. Klomp (my reconstruction genius). He asked if I was on Valium. Huh? The first thing that pops into my head is The Freshmen by the The Verve Pipe, "His girl took a week's worth of Valium and slept..." (seriously, whatever happened to those guys)?
Isn't Valium for people who are overly excited?
He calmed me by saying it is only a muscle relaxer and he was only going to give me the lowest dose possible. "In fact," he said, "You can even take 2 if you need."
Hmmmm. So I came home, after a painful day of driving and no pain killers and took 2 Valium (the "lowest" dose possible). 30 minutes later, I was high as a kite. I even whomped my head on my boy's bunkbed and started giggling after I fell to the ground because I didn't really care.
Last night, as I was in pain again from shivering at my nephew's football game, I came home and Josh readily had 2 Valium for me. I replaced the one back to the bottle and told him I wasn't going to go there again....one would be plenty.
"Awwww," he whined, "but you were so fun with 2."
And there you have it. A drugged mom and housewife with no chest and my husband is persuading me to take more drugs.
Eye on the prize. Eye on the prize.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Pain
I posted this on my other blog also, so if you read both, I apologize for being redundant.
Allow me to wallow in my own pity for a moment. I try not to do it often so just humor me
I consider myself to be a a fairly strong woman. I don't succumb to pain much. I force myself through it.
And now I will proceed to put my foot in my mouth and possibly feast on my own words here.
This surgery, by far, is the worst yet. They have finally removed my port (which I asked to keep....as a souvenir), cut off my left breast and place expander underneath the muscle in both sides of my chest. Not a whole lot of fun. I would really like to head home today but it is not looking very hopeful.
My Doctor asked me if I felt like a train wreck. That is putting it mildly. I told my husband it feels like a herd of Clydesdale horses stampeded my chest.
Don't let the innocent look fool you.....
Not once, and mean NOT ONCE, did I ever throw up from a single chemo treatment.
Just since the surgery I have already lost my cookies 3 times. I can't seem to keep anything down.....and the pain.....oh the pain....I dare say, it is worse than child birth. I just have to keep my eye on the prize. 6 months from now I will be a whole new women with a new set of boobs. Eye on the prize. Eye on the prize.
'Til then? I continue to eat crackers and be doped on morphine and lortab until they release me for home. One of the goals my nurses wrote on the whiteboard was to "Tolerate Diet." So far, not much luck!
Allow me to wallow in my own pity for a moment. I try not to do it often so just humor me
I consider myself to be a a fairly strong woman. I don't succumb to pain much. I force myself through it.
And now I will proceed to put my foot in my mouth and possibly feast on my own words here.
This surgery, by far, is the worst yet. They have finally removed my port (which I asked to keep....as a souvenir), cut off my left breast and place expander underneath the muscle in both sides of my chest. Not a whole lot of fun. I would really like to head home today but it is not looking very hopeful.
My Doctor asked me if I felt like a train wreck. That is putting it mildly. I told my husband it feels like a herd of Clydesdale horses stampeded my chest.
Don't let the innocent look fool you.....
Not once, and mean NOT ONCE, did I ever throw up from a single chemo treatment.
Just since the surgery I have already lost my cookies 3 times. I can't seem to keep anything down.....and the pain.....oh the pain....I dare say, it is worse than child birth. I just have to keep my eye on the prize. 6 months from now I will be a whole new women with a new set of boobs. Eye on the prize. Eye on the prize.
'Til then? I continue to eat crackers and be doped on morphine and lortab until they release me for home. One of the goals my nurses wrote on the whiteboard was to "Tolerate Diet." So far, not much luck!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
la-de-da
I am sitting here in the hospital pre-op waiting for my surgery and they just informed me it will be another hour.
Yikes!
When I came in they were routinely attempting to poke me with a needle to yield some blood for the lab. They couldn't find one to get enough juice out. I sarcastically had to tell them it was because I was instructed not to eat or drink anything since midnight last night so I am dehydrated.
What did they expect?!
My husband is in the corner, mourning the loss of the last of my ta-ta. Oh the pain and agony he must be going through....uh....yeah?
We took our family on the Cabo cruise and returned late Saturday. I arrived only to find out that the hospital was trying to reach me to register me for my surgery. It was this same surgery that I was told 2 weeks ago was "off" because both surgeons couldn't be present. Apparently while I was basking in the remnants Hurricane Rick, the doctors had a pow-wow and decided to put me back on their schedule. Which leads me to now. Sitting in the hospital room, starving, and waiting. Did I mention I am hungry?
At least this surgery I gain something from. In approximately 6 months I will be the proud owner of a new rack!
(Sorry, no pictures with this one.....if I did, I might get slapped for pornography. Although, is it pornography if there is technically nothin' there?)
Yikes!
When I came in they were routinely attempting to poke me with a needle to yield some blood for the lab. They couldn't find one to get enough juice out. I sarcastically had to tell them it was because I was instructed not to eat or drink anything since midnight last night so I am dehydrated.
What did they expect?!
My husband is in the corner, mourning the loss of the last of my ta-ta. Oh the pain and agony he must be going through....uh....yeah?
We took our family on the Cabo cruise and returned late Saturday. I arrived only to find out that the hospital was trying to reach me to register me for my surgery. It was this same surgery that I was told 2 weeks ago was "off" because both surgeons couldn't be present. Apparently while I was basking in the remnants Hurricane Rick, the doctors had a pow-wow and decided to put me back on their schedule. Which leads me to now. Sitting in the hospital room, starving, and waiting. Did I mention I am hungry?
At least this surgery I gain something from. In approximately 6 months I will be the proud owner of a new rack!
(Sorry, no pictures with this one.....if I did, I might get slapped for pornography. Although, is it pornography if there is technically nothin' there?)
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Showers and hair
On my website, I post a weekly cancer joke. I know it is kind of cynnical but I do it anyway. I have been getting a lot of hits. This last week I posted this one:
Although, I would like to think that this joke originally came from me.
After I shaved my hair (I shaved it the morning after my husband was stroking my head and clumps were falling out....another post....another time), I was taking a shower and routinely squirted a blob of shampoo in my hand and proceeded to lather, rinse, repeat. It dawned on me, as I was scrubbing my folicly challenged scalp, that there was nothing their to wash. I replaced the shampoo to its resting place for the next 9 months, never to be opened again during that time.
Soon after the loss of my hair, I discovered that I know longer needed to shave my legs nor pits. It was a heavenly experience. The last to go was my eyelashes and eyebrows. It occurred to me one day, while I was scraping mascara onto my eyelids and poking myself with little fine bristels, that it was probably a moot point. I retired the mascara. I did creative with my eyebrows and drew them on relative to my day (angry eyebrows, excited eyebrows, etc.).
All in all? My preparation time in the morning dropped to 5 minutes flat.
My husband would joke that our water bill had gone down substantially.
Hmmmm. Maybe so, but I still don't think a fair enough trade with all the doctor bills coming in....
See Footlooseandcancerfree.com
I got my PET Scan yesterday. What a fun that ordeal always is!
Coupled with Anxiety and Starvation for the test, it made for a good day for me yesterday!
I will post the results later....but in case I forget, just assume that no news is good news!
What's the best thing about having cancer?
Shorter showers.
Shorter showers.
Although, I would like to think that this joke originally came from me.
After I shaved my hair (I shaved it the morning after my husband was stroking my head and clumps were falling out....another post....another time), I was taking a shower and routinely squirted a blob of shampoo in my hand and proceeded to lather, rinse, repeat. It dawned on me, as I was scrubbing my folicly challenged scalp, that there was nothing their to wash. I replaced the shampoo to its resting place for the next 9 months, never to be opened again during that time.
Soon after the loss of my hair, I discovered that I know longer needed to shave my legs nor pits. It was a heavenly experience. The last to go was my eyelashes and eyebrows. It occurred to me one day, while I was scraping mascara onto my eyelids and poking myself with little fine bristels, that it was probably a moot point. I retired the mascara. I did creative with my eyebrows and drew them on relative to my day (angry eyebrows, excited eyebrows, etc.).
All in all? My preparation time in the morning dropped to 5 minutes flat.
My husband would joke that our water bill had gone down substantially.
Hmmmm. Maybe so, but I still don't think a fair enough trade with all the doctor bills coming in....
See Footlooseandcancerfree.com
I got my PET Scan yesterday. What a fun that ordeal always is!
Coupled with Anxiety and Starvation for the test, it made for a good day for me yesterday!
I will post the results later....but in case I forget, just assume that no news is good news!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
THANK YOU!
HOLY COW!!!
Swiss Days was amazing and I have all of you guys to thank! We did better than we could have ever imagined!
I will post all the remainder items for sale on our website within the next week!
Be on the look out for us at Santa's Workshop or Dickens Festival with new items and original creations (we haven't decided which one to do yet).
Swiss Days was amazing and I have all of you guys to thank! We did better than we could have ever imagined!
I will post all the remainder items for sale on our website within the next week!
Be on the look out for us at Santa's Workshop or Dickens Festival with new items and original creations (we haven't decided which one to do yet).
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Swiss Days
It's coming. Swiss Days. It is a wonderful tradition of my little town, Santa Clara. I am happy to announce that my business, PaddiCakes (see link to the right or click here) has a booth this year. We just got our new shipment of dresses and are also really excited to launch a few new products this year. We haven't got the new inventory on our website yet. Check back in later to see it all. If you are in the area, stop by our booth. Say "hi." Even if I don't seem to recognize you (darn chemo-head....I forget entirely too much lately)!
Swiss Days is this Friday and Saturday, September 25-26.
In the meantime, here is a sneak peak at some of our dresses:
Swiss Days is this Friday and Saturday, September 25-26.
In the meantime, here is a sneak peak at some of our dresses:
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Josher's
I took these pictures the other day on Josh's first day of preschool. I love 'em. I have to give a shout out to my husband (who never reads this blog) for giving me such an awesome camera! Thanks babe! Love ya!
This is Ally, my neice. She is sooooo photogenic!
(don't forget to check out my website/other blog: Footloose and Cancer Free)
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